Life As I Like It

26 Jul 2011 2 Comments

by welandscape in life

 

It’s been a while since I blogged, the reason being was because I had nothing to blog about! I was tired of feeling tired, hopeless and sad. I felt like every blog I had was complaining or devoid of real emotion or power.  What’s the point of even blogging if that’s what you’re putting out there?

Today I was driving through an old neighborhood of mine and as I tend to do, I was thinking… I was thinking about my life; here, and now. Well folks, guess what?

 

I’M HAPPY!

Truly, honestly, happy. For the first time in a LONG time, I am happy.  Everywhere I am at in life is just genuinely happy. So here is a little update on where I’m at in life. It’s been a while since I last blogged so I can’t quite remember what you know and what you don’t so some of this might be a repeat.

I am no longer with CVS – WAHOOO! After five years of putting everything into it and just not feeling satisfied no matter what I am gone and couldn’t be happier about it. Technically I was ‘let go’ but it wasn’t a legitimate cause, and I really could have fought it if I wanted to but… I didn’t. I spent four months on Unemployment and going to school.  It was liberating, since I’ve always been such a hard worker, but it also made me feel like a scumbag.  Finally, I got a position working with the Board of Health for the County and now I inspect restaurants and pools and the like. I don’t love it, in fact the public health sector is not at all what I want to do but… It’s a job and I’m not complaining.  It’s only seasonal and soon I’ll be transitioning to a nice desk job I’ve already secured.

I am in a very loving, very happy, very serious relationship.  His name is Ben, and he’s amazing. We live together and I’ve NEVER, EVER, been happier.  As cliché as it is to say, (and I hate to say it) It just feels right. It’s really amazing how happy I am with him.  I’m not happy BECAUSE of him, I’m just happy, and he’s happy, and together we’re happy.  This is an important lesson I learned in life. To be happy on my own and not to seek happiness in other people!!! Anyway, this is a picture of Ben & I at the Red Sox Game we went to… ISN”T HE CUTE?! I just love him. I feel so blessed to be a part of his life and vice versa. 

He also has a daughter, she’s amazing too and I’m absolutely in love with her too. How lucky am I that I get to fall in love with two people? I just feel so, so very blessed.  This is a picture of her with one of the chicks we had. (We had six, we are down to zero now. RIP Chickies! The raccoons are well fed in our neighborhood )

She is two and a half, for her birthday I made a Mickie Mouse Cake that was a big hit with the whole family! I think it came out pretty good, what do you think? It made me want to go into the bakery business so now that’s some sort of side fantasy of mine. Open up my own bakery. If you’re local and want me to make you something, let me know… I’ll see what I can cook up!

I’ve also gotten back to basics if you will, what I mean by that is that I’m me again. I listen to country again, I’m riding horses again, I’m just doing things I LIKE TO DO, and not doing things for everybody else but me.  It’s amazing.  I never thought I’d get back to the barn, I had spent so much of my life there and then just kind of stopped when I got married.  I justified it as not having enough time, or enough money, or that I needed to focus on saving my marriage.  All of those things sound logical enough but I hadn’t spent any time on me so when things fell apart, everything fell apart with it.  Anyway, I’m back at it.  Largely in part to Ben, who’s family has welcomed me with open arms and I am now at their barn regularly helping out with chores and taking care of the horses. That’s a picture of my “Spaghetti” as we call him.  He’s a love bug, and my favorite of the three that are there.

Well… that’s all for now. I’ll try to update this thing a little bit more often now that I’ve got things worth reading.  

 

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